I’m stuck and confused. Most of me really likes D but, part of me is detached. He makes me feel special, makes me laugh & smile again but, I have reservations. I don’t know if it’s my past. his age, the ghettoness factor or what is holding me back.
I do know that no matter how much I like him I’m only kinda physically attracted to him. when I think of him I think of kissing and cuddling not of sex. I think he also makes me doubt my sexual skills.
The other night D kept talking about Valentine’s Day asking what my favorite flowers, colors & candies are. I really don’t want him to get me anything. I don’t feel right accepting gifts from him. But, on the other hand I will feel bad if he gets me something and I don’t get him anything. I have no clue what an appropriate gift would be in this situation. Do I make or buy him a card but, put a personalized message in it?
Ugh!!!!!!
I hate men. For real. I think you are scared because of your past but again I think you are sticking to your gut with him which is where you need to listen too.
It's nice knowing someone cares but if it isn't all their then no need to keep trying to fool yourself either.
You know what is best. Hugs! XD