I had my monthly therapist appointment today .. it was pretty much the same as usual. When I got to telling her about BD saying something about wanting to have a baby for my birthday and wanting to rent a hotel room for that weekend she literally choked on her tea lmfao! I keeping having to tell her that I can’t afford the $30 so that I can go get my birth certificate to apply for insurance but, I feel like such a moron saying it though honestly that $30 is taking food out of my daughters mouth that I just can’t do.

I still haven’t talked to Keri since Saturday night when I blew up at her about stuff. She texted me Sunday & Monday and left a pathetic ass voicemail message on my cellphone Tuesday but, I haven’t responded because 1) She put me in a shitty position 2) She hasn’t apologised at all for anything and 3) She lied that the guys stuff was squashed & I can tell my her little sneaking Myspace status messages.

I can’t lie and say that I don’t miss just picking up the phone and calling or texting her but, I don’t miss the constant drama, bitching and excessive drinking at all. Oh yeah and her expecting me to always pay for her shit too. The rest of us have grown up and have taken responsibility for ourselves & our lives but, she is always going to be all about herself. I though it was guys that never grew up … maybe she is hiding a penis in there somewhere …