Today is really just another boring Sunday at my house. I got up did a load of laundry & went to the dollar store and that is about it for the day. I am just relaxing on the front porch since I can actually get a WiFi connection out here and it has FINALLY stopped raining.

Last night SBH gave me $20 so that Kidlet will have spending money for her school fieldtrip tomorrow since I don’t have the money to spare. SBD and I go into it a little bit when I told him about it because I didn’t ask him for money or help. I didn’t ask SBH either. SBH decided to give Kidlet that money as a sort of birthday advance. SBD kept asking me if I need money and that he didn’t mind helping me. But, I do mind it. I can’t take money from people because I have no way to pay them back. I don’t want SBD to help me because I’m afraid that down the road he will hold it against me. I really don’t think he will but really he’s a man and I don’t trust them lol.

If Kidlet needed medicine, food or something for school and I didn’t have the money yes, I would ask SBD or SBH for it. I certainly can’t ask my Mom because she doesn’t have any money as it is helping me with my utility bills. I am just so sick of being broke. I want to be able to walk into a grocery store and buy everything that I need to fill up my cupboards, fridge & freezer and not worry about how much I am spending. I want to be able to pay for my own utilities. I want to be able to have luxuries like cable and internet.

Anyway, I guess Kidlet is not coming home tonight yet again. Apparently my Mom is just going to keep her which really sucks. I just miss her so much. But, yet when she is home she drives me insane because she is so much like me.

Tonight I will probably going to Kdawg’s & SBH’s for dinner since Kidlet isn’t home and I am sick and tired of eating rice, pasta & grits (MEAT here please? lol).