I really honestly do. I usually love Christmas, giving Kidlet presents, and decorating. This year not so much. Not only does the economy suck but, with all the bills , moving costs, not getting a Christmas bonus or a raise from work screwed everything.

I think I had a total of 50 bucks to spend on Kidlet. I bought stocking stuffers and 3 boardgames. The only saving grace of Kidlet’s Christmas was a suprise present of an all wood Clarinet from my Mom & her boyfriend.

It doesn’t help that BD’s mom (that spolied Kidlet and her cousin) was tragically killed in a house fire in January. This is Kidlet’s first Christmas without her … and she really misses her.

It’s now the time of the month that we have barely any food in our fridge and cupboards. We are poor no doubt. I make too much to get any government assistance but not enough to live on. Don’t get me wrong I am greatfull that Kidlet and I have a safe solid roof over our heads and for our friends and family. But, I am sick and tired of scrounging for the neccesities like food and toilet paper.

In the past few days I have seen people with much better single incomes or multiple incomes get handed large amounts of money for no reason and the only thing they do is basically rub it in everyones faces. Why don’t you do something worth while and maybe help someone else out in your city / neighborhood and donate it so someone who is in need.