I don’t understand what happened. Six or seven years ago I created my first domain and blogged everyday. I blogged through living with my Ex and when I kicked him out I would come home from work at night and work on my site, and share my pain, drama, tears, and laughter.

When I blog now I have to be so general about my child and the things in my life because of BD that my blogs lack the real me.

I haven’t opened up a photo editing program to create a layout in I don’t know how long nor have I coded much of anything at all. I used to enjoy relaxing and being creative.

Now, I have two jobs, a child who is getting into all sorts of great programs, a bunch of animals, and a house to deal with alone. I occasionally get to go out and have fun but, I want a relationship. I don’t have time to relax and enjoy my website so how do I have time for anything else.

I need to minimize the way I live. I need to just start throwing out all the stuff that I no longer use or need. I need to give some of the animals to other people.

My life is changing in a way that I don’t want .. and I am going to put a stop to that now.