I went driving with BD today …. We went to the mall & I drove a little in a part that nobody parks in then I went on the “main road” of the parking lot.

I didn’t do too bad I guess. I stopped before the line at all the stop signs, was a bit nervous with cars infront of me & behind me lol.

Then after I was done BD & I where sitting there having a cigarette. I decided to look in the glove compartment to see what cd’s were in there. Lo & Behold I found a WHOLE bunch of cd’s that weren’t his that he wouldn’t listen to and some stupid love songs cd.

God it just pisses me off! Oh, I got them at the dollar store. WTF, You would never go in ANYWHERE with me but, you can go to the dollar store?

I don’t think him teaching me to drive is such a good idea. The person I WANT to teach me how to drive never fucking calls me and guess what! He knows stupid’s girlfriend.

If I didn’t have my mom here & Kidlet too I KNOW I’d pack my things up and move out of state.

I need to just go & start somewhere new. Where I wont constantly have BD around me. I don’t need to be here with all the memories & pain.

Maybe I’ll take a week off, kennel the dogs, drop the cat’s at mom’s, have Kidlet go to BD’s and just get on a fucking plane.