I’m sitting here bleary eyed and smoking a cigarette why?

I didn’t manage to get to sleep until 12:30 after laying there forever only to be awakened by a bad dream.

it was so realistic that I woke myself you while crying.

I feel like shit. Eyes burning as though they were splashed with acid. My heart is racing a mile a minute.

I wish I was able to go on with out the feelings of hurt and resentment. I wish I could tell them how I really feel.

I wish he would understand the way I feel about him. Everyone else can see but, why can’t he?

I wish I had the courage that I used to posses so much of.

I wish that he felt the same.